A Year Ago

I can hardly believe it's almost February. Last February 8, I was starting a new life in a new town. My son moved in shortly after and his life was changing too. A beautiful, sunlit home. A yard that was a canvas for gardening with my son. Jehovah the focus of every single member of my family.

I miss the brightness, the happiness, the joy of all that was happening a year ago....

Weight Loss Wednesday: More Discoveries

I've made a lot of discoveries along the way. Some of them I already posted. And now I have more. Apparently, the theory that we continue to burn calories after a workout has been proven. If one gets into a good cardiac workout mode, an additional 200 calories can be burned over a 14 hour period after the workout. This would explain a few things.

The Questions I'll Never Ask

I cannot understand how this vast space between us developed. I call every week. I hear nothing back. This has been going on since the beginning of the year... at least.
No calls. No emails. Judging by your reactions and responses to things, the enemy has convinced you of their case. You may not be on this earth long and at this stage of the game, you would turn your back on me? I do not understand. I will never understand.

One by one.. I've lost everyone who didn't really matter. One by one, I'm losing the rest.

Weight Loss Wednesday: Kicking the Soda Habit

It's been one week since I first posted that I want to attempt this weight loss thing.  This week, I want to talk about why.  It's not simply because I've gained weight.  Obviously, I've known about my weight and wasn't concerned. In fact, my BMI is within the healthy range.  It's more about why I've gained weight.

The Show Must Go On

Always being who I am supposed to be.
The strength. The mom. The one who pushes forward.
Never weak. Never hurt. Never crying.
And so I put up the act.
I'm never weak. I'm never hurt. I never cry.

Never in front of you anyway.

Weight Loss Wednesday

Did the title get your attention? Yeah.. I'm just pullin' your leg. I haven't lost any weight. Psssh are you kidding me? However, it has been on my mind lately.  Weird, right? I mean, I'm 43 and have never given a thought to my weight in my life. Ok that's not true either. In 1993, I dropped to 96lbs. It took my dad showing me my sunken cheeks on a video for me to prompt me into getting on a scale. I mean, how would I know? Perhaps the size 3 pants may have been a clue if it weren't for the fact that I'd always been a size 5. What's dropping one size? Apparently it can make a lot of difference. But that's the only time I gave any thought to weight.

Change is in the Air

I've not been staying "on top" of this blog lately. Life has been busy, crazy, lazy, anxiety-filled and joyful over the last few months. Much is changing in my life and about my life. Much is changing in me. And... now the blog has a brand new look too. So I guess changes are in the air. It is October after all. Even the seasons are changing.

I am here and doing well. I want to stay on top of writing and have updated everything so that I can do that (the previous template wasn't working and I couldn't seem to make it work..so I was avoiding the blog entirely). So I'm back and hoping to write more.

Thanks for sticking with me friends!